The poet the writer
the person that others saw as a poet a writer
a person that earned their living by writing
had an idea
an idea to be a student again a student of writing
and so he wrote a proposal
a thought an idea on paper
and presented the idea to a professor and a panel of academics for approval
for acceptance
acceptance being of course a reason for the writer
becoming a writer in the first place
to seek acceptance
to belong to this country this landscape this society
this place
this place where the writer the i the poet was born
but was never made to feel a part of
or never felt that he
because a he he was
he was born a he
and a he he was undeniably and undoubtably
because there was never any doubt ever in his mind of his he-ness
just the proportions of his he-ness
or at least the attention drawn to the proportions of the thing
that linked him to all other hes his he-ness
his penis was small his mother said to the doctor
well not his penis
his father would not approve of her saying penis or pregnant
in front of children
his glands his glands doctor
they look well underdeveloped for his age doctor
but doctor said they'd be o.k. and they were
but he always thought they looked small
a smallish he-ness never ever never no wishing for a her-ness
just release from the harness of gender and classness
this he-ness this writer this poet
this i never felt part of this this so-called classlessness
this blacklessness this genderlessness
this loch-nessless bunyip land of milk and honey
and cream brick houses on a quarter acre of land
this land the i the writer the poet
re-wrote to include himself in
because he is a he
he is a he who is a writer who sees things from a he point of view
he who redefined the environment the atmosphere
the landscape in which he could exist as a he
and as a blackless he
a blackless classless cuntless he
he re-wrote re-interpreted the text the textures
the yet to be expressed textness of this land and was accepted
was accepted as a he that fitted into the he-scape
he created the he-scape
the he-text accepted him as a he
in context
he contextualized his blacklessness classlessness cuntlessness existence
his text was accepted as a measure of acceptance
acceptance of his status
his context as a writer a poet a text generator a text experimenter
in the context of this vast classlessness
this sunburnt blacklessness
this suck-my-cock cuntlessness
was accepted to study writing
to study again
to create to reflect to comment on the text created
as a writer
as a problem solver
as a traveler
as a scholar
as a student of creative writing
new writing writing that engages that enrages
that breaks conventions
that challenges beliefs
and defies definitions and traditions
the i the writer the poet was accepted
and by being accepted rejected the he he had been
for that he the he he had been was a has been
that he seemed like a stranger to him
the writer the poet the i that wrote himself into the landscape
into being into being accepted and was accepted as a student
and as a student began to re-define the he he had been
the he he called i the i that he wrote
the i he thought i was because the i that writes is not the i that is written about
for the i written about is never the i that writes but the i i thinks i is
or the i i wants to be
never he never i never the i that i is
for in the context the he-text i writes within
this lessness context this first world context
this one world one globe context
this well fed warm bed context
this post berlin wall context
this reconstructed marxist context
this new world order context
this solar powered environmentally friendly nuclear free context
this post n.a.s.a. moon walk space probe intergalactic context
this gloriously infinitesimal infinite infinity
in the context of this infinity there is no absolute truth
no absolute truth except that the i the i that writes
the i that proposes proposals of study
the i that is writing
that i is finite that i has a beginning and an end known as birth and death
and between birth and death there is life
and having a beginning and an end and a life
that i must have a middle and a mid life
and that mid-life is also a part of the context
the mid-life he finds himself in or tries to find him self in
for i has a self as well as a he and a context a place a landscape
and a blacknessless and a classlessness and a cuntnessless
and a self that is neither he nor she nor it
a self that doesn't want his cock sucked when he is depressed
a self that is happy in being
and a self that enjoys self
makes problems for self
and a self that enjoys solving those problems for self
enjoys being by itself
creating for itself
a self comfortable with the infinity of the self
a self masquerading as a he
a mid-life he
manifesting as the i
i the poet i the writer i the he the midlife he the she-less he
the she-less he he chose to be
not for another she
but to re-acquaint his self with he
with i
i the writer the poet
to create a new context in which to exist
to construct a new reality
so that i could only place himself in the context of things to come
not things that have passed
the self is comfortable in the present can not be found in the past or the future
i writes for the future
creating a context
for the self to be comfortable with when the future becomes present
and he can be blamed for the past
so the poet the writer the i
began to write the dissertation
the writing that would make a significant contribution to the genre
the genre of writing called poetry
and i called this writing cyberpoetry.